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I spent my time at the Roundtable Residency researching and developing new work. My interests recently have surrounded memory and trauma. When thinking about creating work in the context of a residency that culminates with an online exhibition, I was led to think about the difference between digital and physical spaces. Armed with cameras in our pockets, we are constantly translating physical spaces into digital ones. Those moments we capture that flatten and preserve our reality are intimate. Seemingly significant to only the photographer, it is a common experience that we all share. Trapping memories, holding onto fleeting moments, preserving our lives in a format that we hope won’t degrade like our environments, bodies and minds.

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I wanted to recreate these digital copies of our lives tangibly. Taking these safeguarded memories, semi forgotten, and breathing new life into them. Using turmeric as my medium, I am shortening their lifespan. Allowing these moments, a short time to exist before they fade away, ultimately undoing the work of my camera. I began to think about the meditative possibility of this process. Working through representations of trauma, I painted frames of a video of me crying. The frames stack and distort the image until it is no longer discernible as my face, in part mirroring the bodily disassociation a person who has experienced trauma feels. At the same time, obscuring the ties between the being and the trauma. Giving physical space to it, holding onto and letting it go simultaneously.

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